Mixed feelings....My thoughts

There are two types of people in this world. For the first group of people(most of them), money matters and for very few others, life matters. No point for guessing ;), because anyone who knows me can blindly tell that I would definately opt for the later option. Okey, by the grace of god, I have got this life. So is there anything wrong if I want to live multiple lives within this one life. I could never get the fact that how can a person live a monotonous same routine for 20-30 years. I got fed up with that in 5 years. May be that was my tolerance level :(, lower than other people. But I took a step forward and made a decision to end my old life at a certain point and start a new beginning. Not everyone has this courage. Ok at least, I have something to cover up my low tolerance level :). The former type of people (money type) thought I have got a perfect job (for some of them, its a dream job, seriously; I just wanna tell them wake up dude), a perfect life, a perfect family and everything so perfect. But the problem is , I am not perfect at all. An imperfect person sorrunded by perfect environment, that was my actual reason for suffocation. Then I remembered that  my dad always boosted up saying that he came to Kathmandu with Rs. 100 in his hand and did so much for us. So I also wanted to tell my children that I just came up here with 2000 bucks and created this regime for you guyz. Hence, decision was made and my journey began in a search of a new life. I wasnot just happy with my previous life . So I broke my own laws, my own values and my own beliefs for the pursuit of my happiess.

I know I may fall down on my noses and guess what, people are eagarly waiting to see that so that they could prove themselves right and tell me, see I had told you earlier. The only problem I have with Nepalese people is everyone I meet suggests or orders me to do something or not to do something. Now you have completed studies, u should find a job. I did and they said you should get married. OK I did, and immediately the following day they stared demanding for a child. I said you guyz focus on your own life and let me live my life. But would they stop? Unanomously, everyone said you shouldnot go abroad, you have better life here. Who the hell are they to decide about my life. I said get lost everyone,I have made up my mind,  I will definately go. I want to live a life of my own. I want to see how the world outside my confort zone looks like. I want to experience a new life style, meet people around the world, know their stories, share my feelings, learn new things and enjoy new feelings. I got to meet few couples from Nepal. I couldnot believe that actually an abroad life is easier for girls than guyz. We have been trained from our birth to live with the fact that we
have to leave our family one day. If we can survive without our family then would we miss in-laws abroad; no ways ;). To be absolutely frank, it has become intolerable for married girls in Nepal to keep a proper balance between their life and work. Not being able to handle pressure from office as well as family was one of the major reasons for 90% of girls to fly abroad :O. And I give you my words, the rate is only going to increase in the future. Now its high time to redefine the society laws and rules for women or sit back and see your children flying away.When the so called rules and regulations of the society start killing an achiever, a dreamer and a struggler inside a girl, only breaking the rules seems to make sense to her.

Now, since I have moved on, did I stop loving my country. Absoluteky not. I alwzys had a strong feeling towards making my country a better place to live in compared to my friends. Thats a reason, my friends had never guessed about my decision of going abroad. But with time everthing just got changed. The question of " How can I contribute to my country" just transformed into "how can I steal an hour of extra sleep on saturday so that I can reenergize myself for the coming week". Then I thought; balancing my country's economy and minimizing trade deficit though remittance is also not a bad idea. Jokes apart, I have promised myself to return back to my country because I know I cant life this life for ever as well. I have to end this life at certain point and my new life, new chapter will again unfold at Nepal. But when?? yeah, After getting the power when noone dares to tell me what I should do and what I shoulnot do. My dad wanted to send me to China to become a doctor. But I never ever wanted to be so. Nooffence, But I dont like doctors at all. I said I would rather go for engineering, so opted for architecture engineering. After 15 days, I called dad and said its not my cup of tea and am going to change the faculty. He literally got shocked and asked me not to do so. But ultimate decision was mine, and I finally when I managed to hold a distinction in Electronics Engineering, my dad felt equally proud of me :). I dont know if my life would have been better if I had become a doctor or architect, but I always felt proud to make my own decisions and prove myself right. I am just sure my further decisions wont be regretful either.

The big question now is why am I writing this. Because I dont want to forget what I have felt at this transtion phase of my life. When I look back and read this, I can relive the moment and remind myself about my priorities and way of seeing my life.

Some advertisements we had developed for NTC and nagarik news as a part of our assignment. Just a collection not to let it go out of memory!!!!

Youth and Entrepreneurship

We see around that almost every youngster is complaining about the unemployment, lack of opportunity, insurgency, lack of infrastructure, and so on. Most of them desire to get some lucrative job or settle abroad as soon as they complete their higher education. Least of them think or dare to start a new venture and do something on their own. But youngsters solely cannot be blamed for this situation. We live in the society where from our childhood, we are constantly bombarded with the idea that we should grab a reputed profession like doctor, engineer, government officer or alike on our adulthood. None of the parents inspire their children to become an entrepreneur. They are happy if their child gets some regular income earning job and stick with that throughout their life without getting any chance to explore themselves further, know their ability, search for the opportunities and work on their innovative ideas .We always tend to choose the path carved by our ancestors that is presumed to be safe but lacks the room for creativity.

It’s high time to understand that the sustainable growth of enterprises do help in uplifting the economy of the country. It’s the best way of creating jobs and not letting our talent escape from our country. Some of the major problems like poverty, low living standard, unemployment, etc. can be solved or at least minimized by promoting entrepreneurship. Just we must have the vision to grasp the opportunity and dare to take the risk. But for this, Youngsters need to be encouraged by their friends, family, society and thus country when they start any kind of new entrepreneurial venture. Before that, they need to be educated and create awareness about the concept of entrepreneurship and thus inspire to become an entrepreneur.

Though the concept of entrepreneurship is still struggling to occupy the mind space of the people, it’s really nice to see the increasing number of youngsters taking interest on entrepreneurship. The importance is slowly being recognized. People are waiting chance to create the change and become the part of economic revolution of the country.

Rabindra Puri could have easily spend his life happily with a well paid job at GTZ; but his immense interest on architect did not allow him just to stay there and stare the old buildings pulled down to give an ugly concrete structure. Thus he started to restore the old buildings and monuments without destroying its architecture and associated emotions. His first project was a huge success which was declared as a “Model House” by Bhaktapur municipality. Slowly he moved towards the housing project where he restored old houses and built new ones in a traditional style. Being one of the most successful entrepreneurs of this time, he has proved that if a person believes on his idea and devotes himself for that, success is just going to follow him.

Mr. Amrit Tuladhar, after completing his bachelors and masters degree from USA, came back to do something here in Nepal. After working for 4 years in Himalayan bank, he thought of quitting his regular income earning job and taking his dad’s retail business to online. Thus he introduced “muncha.com” basically derived from Muncha house located at New road. It was the time when internet was out of reach of general public. But he had the clear vision of changing environment and in no time internet access became so common over here. He didn’t stop right there and continuously tried to experiment lots of things from allowing others to sell through him to printing and delivering photos uploaded at the site as per the order. He’s a great source of inspiration to those who think nothing can be done at this place and thus, migrate abroad.

He is just 28 and has conquered Mt. Everest twice. Though his mother is from Belgium, Dawa Steven Sherpa has acquired his genes from his Nepalese father along with whom, he manages “Asian Trekking”; a leading agency for expeditions and trekking in Nepal. He creatively raises money for ecology. The money raised would used in projects to prepare local villages to withstand the effects of climate change. In 2007, he founded the world’s highest bakery at 5350 meters in the Base-camp. He is a successful entrepreneur focused not only in earning money but uplifting the economic as well as the social condition of the country. He has created a new image of Sherpas living around Everest who were only just viewed as guides in previous days.

Born and raised in Nangi, a remote village in the mountainous Myagdi District of western Nepal, Mr. Mahabir Pun spent his childhood grazing cattle, and attending a village school. After graduating from USA, he returned to his native village and thus recognized the critical need for sustainable education. Pun founded the Himanchal High School with a special focus on computer education and other programs with income-generating capacity. Mr. Pun is a social entrepreneur. He started the distance learning and online education services at the rural part of the country. He built a new cultural centre and has developed communication links for yak farmers. His contributions are really appreciable inspiring the young generations of today on indulging on those activities that can change the shape of our country; if not at least that of our community. 

Chetan Bhandari was born in 2033 B.S. At home, he used tuki batti while studying. Today, Mr. Chetan Bhandari holds great pride in introducing himself as the chairman of Baje ko Sekuwa, a famous restaurant chain in the city of Kathmandu. The first few days came as a shock though. On the first day itself, he could not even sell three plates of sekuwa, out of the 3 kgs of meat that he had carried along. It was disappointing but that did not stop him from hoping for the better days. His patience paid off well. Because he was a Brahmin and would always wear traditional Dahura Suruwal, the officials in and around the airport started saying to each other, “tyo bahun baje ko ma sekuwa khaana jaun”. Soon enough, people started calling it, Baje ko sekuwa. It’s one of the most profitable brand at today’s date which is an ultimate example of how a small start can lead to a huge success.

We may not have heard so many success stories of young Entrepreneurs, but those few who have attempted to create a change, to become innovative and to work on their ideas, are the source of inspiration to all the youngsters. Following their footsteps, more Entrepreneurs are likely to born and the number will go on increasing for sure. However, the environment that a nation creates also determines the significant number of Entrepreneurs to be developed and grow. Strong and effective institutions that provide security to the life and property, maintain rule of law, encourage healthy competition and innovation are the basic requirements of Entrepreneurship development. Obviously Nepal lacks such institutions and laws with the minimum infrastructure and haphazard political, legal and economic condition. But just complaining would do nothing. If one dares to come out of the comfort zone and fight against the situation with his new, innovative ideas and strong determination, he is likely to set an example and inspire others to become a successful Entrepreneur.

The condition of the country is not as worse in real as it is in the perception of the people. There are tremendous opportunities waiting for the people to grab them and convert into the successful stories. Not anyone else but young generation should now take this responsibility. Instead of waiting for someone else to create a favorable environment, people need to fight against the existing situation and thus create a better opportunities for themselves and for the new generation. We can still be hopeful that youngsters will choose to be an Entrepreneur to any other options in the very near future.

कहिलेकाहिं सोच्दा लाग्छ!!!!!

हारेको मन

डुबेका रहर

टुटेको मुटु

मरेको आत्मा

सम्हालौं कसरी

म आफैलाई !!!

न बाँच्न सक्छु

न हास्न सक्छु

रुन्छु तड्पिन्छु

केवल आश गर्छु!!!

नया समय आउला

मेरो दुःख हरला

खुशीको सागरमा

डुबुल्की मारुम्ला

पिडा सबै लुकाई

मुस्कुराउनै पर्ने

यो दुनिया कस्तो

नाटकमै रमाउने!!!!

ठोकर जति खाएनि

अघि बढ्नै पर्ने

रीत यस्तै छ यहाको

बाचिरहनै पर्ने!!!

हासिरहनै पर्ने!!!

देखाइरहनै पर्ने!!!!

Clouds

clouds taking various shapes

जातीय प्रदेशको विरोधमा

मुटुमाथि हात राखी आफैं सँग सोध

के साचीं टुक्राउननै चाहन्छौ त देश??

जुनसुकै जात धर्म माने पनि

के हैनौ र पहिले नेपाली तिमी??

यी धर्ति पनि हुन त तिम्रै आमा

रोइरहेछिन आज पसि एउटा कुना

पोखुं पनि कोसंग उनले आफ्नो दु:ख

सन्तान नै उनका निक्ले यति मूर्ख

केहि ब्वाँसाहरूले नेता रूप धरे

त के हामले आफ्नो विवेक गुमाउने??

अतिथिलाई देउता हामी मान्ने गर्थिम

आफ्नै दाजु-भाईसंग भिड्न हामी तम्सिम

सदभाव नै शक्ति हुने गर्थयो देशमा

लडदैछन् आज जातीयताको नाममा

भाई फुटे गंवारले लुटछन्

देशको अस्तित्व माटोमा मिलाउछन्

सुन्दर र शान्त सदभाव सहितको

मलाई  पुरानो नेपाल फिर्ता चाहियो

हातोमालो गर्दै आऊ आजैबाट

यो देशलाई बचाउन तर्फ लाग!!!!!!

हिंड्दा हिंड्दै

आज केहि घटनाहरुलाई शब्दरुपी जालमा बुन्न मान लाग्य छ। हुन त यी घटनाहरू विल्कुलै सामान्य छन् तर पनि किन हो मेरो मानसपटलमा गहिरो छाप छोडेका छन्। यिनमा न त ज्ञानगुनका ठूला ठूला कुरा हरू नै पाइन्छन न त कुनै मनोरन्जनको श्रोत नै हुन तर पनि जीवनका केहि लुकेका तथ्य हरु भेटाए मैले यि घटना भित्र जस्ले उत्प्रेरित गर्यो मलाई यो ब्लग लेख्नलाई ता कि समय चक्र घुम्दै जांदा यि कुराहरू मेरा स्मरणबाट टाढा हुंदै नजाउन्।

केहि वर्ष अगाडि आमा मामाघर जानुभाथ्यो , बाबा अचानक बिरामी हुनुभयो । म र दिदि खांदा खांदैको गाँस छोडेर teachin hospital को emergencyतिर दौडिम। तर बिडम्बना emergency मा एउटा बेड पनि खाली थिएन न त बाबा को त्यो हालत नै के हामी अर्को hospital जाने बारे सोच्न सक्थियौं ।वाध्यतावस दुई बिरामिले एउटै बेड share गरेर काम चलाइयो । तर अहिलेको द्श्य बिल्कूलै फरक छ। दुई तले emergency building मा बेडहरु जताततै खाली देखिन्छन् । यो सम्भव भएको हो त केवल एक व्यक्तिको कारण – मीन ब. गुरुङ ; उहि के त हाम्रा भाटभटेनिका साहुजी । आफ्ना स्वर्गिय माता पिताको प्रतिमूर्ति सहितको building हस्पिटल जस्तो सामाजिक कार्यमा समर्पित संस्थानलाई उपलब्ध गराएको देख्दा हर कोहिलाई “पैसा कमाउनु त यसरी” जस्तो किन नलाग्दो हो र। “यो building मा त हाम्रो नि पैसा पर्या छ नि, हामले किनेको सामान बाट नाफा कमाको पैसो के त” फ्याट्ट एउटा काकाले भनिहाले ।तुरुन्त तेसको उत्तर आयो “ऊ नभाको भए पनि कसै न कसैले ता खाइहाल्थ्यो , तर खाएर पनि यति गर्यो यहि ठूलो कुरा हो” । कुरा सोर्है आना साँचो थियो । गुरुङ जति पैसा कमाएका यो देशमा कति होलान तर यसरि सामाजिक कार्यमा अग्रसरता देखाउने कतिनै होलान र ।यस्तो कामले समाजलाई त राम्रो गर्छ नै, गुरुङजी जस्ता ब्यापारीलाई झनै फाइदा पो गराउंदो रहेछ ।मान्छेहरू माझ उहांहरुको छबि मात्र राम्रो बन्दैन कि उहांहरुको ब्यापार नि फस्टाउंदै जान्छ । “तेसैले त भाटभटेनिमा किन्दा गौरव महसुस हुन्छ” फेरि तिनै काकाले भने ।मैले चाहिं माननै सोचें “पैसा कमाएर मात्र केहि नहुदो रैछ, तेसको सहि रूपमा उपयोग गर।न नि जान्नु पर्ने रहेछ” ।

यो प्रसंग अलि रमाइलो छ। मेरो भदा ५-६ वर्षको हुंदो हो; lays को एकदम सोखिम । म lays नलि उसलाई भेट्न गयो भने मेरो खैर छैन । एकदिन हामी रात्रीवस बाट बिराटनगर जादैं थिम जाममा परेर बाटोमा बस रोकियो। फुच्चे मेरो काखमै थियो। येसो नजर एता उता घुमाको त अगाडि lays नै lays ले सजिएको एउटा किराना पसल रैछ। मैले फुच्चेलाई “भाई हेर त पसलमा के रैछ” भनेर सोधेको ता फ्याट्ट उत्तर अइहालो “रक्सी” ।म त तिनछक नै परे । राम्ररी हेर्या त पसलको एक कुनामा रक्सीका बोतल रहेछन ।आफैलाई हास उठ्यो ।पसलमा चारैतिर lays थियो जुन उसलाई  औधी मन पर्दथियो तर उसको आँखा पसलको एउटा कुना मात्र ओगटेका बोतलहरुमा गयो जसको स्वाद सम्म उस्को जिब्रोले थाह पाएको थिएन। “आखिर यो केटाको जात नै यस्तै हो कि रक्सी को मात” मैले  चाहिं अझ नि ठम्माउन सकिरहेकि थिइन  ।

गाउँघरमा युवा पुस्ता भेटाउन असम्भव झैं भइसक्या छ आजकाल त । कि त उनिहरु अरब, दुबैतिर पसिना बगाउंदै हुन्छन् नभए विदेशिने रहर सहित काठमाडौं मा जुत्ता खियाउंदै हुन्छन् ।तेस्तै गाऊंको एउटा भाई विदेशको हण्डर खप्न नसकेर २० वर्ष अघि परमधाम भएका हजुरबाको आकस्मिक निधन भो भन्ने चिठीका आधारमा नेपाल फर्केका थिए । ऊ भेटियो गाऊँमा । अचम्म को कुरा ऊ फर्केपछि उसका बा र गाउँका अर्का एक दाईलाई मुग्लान पठाइएको रहेछ । “ बा लाई किन खेदिस हो कान्छा” भन्ने प्रश्नको सरल जवाफ थियो ऊ संग । “दिनभर रक्सी खाएर गाउँमा बरालिएर हैरान गरे, एसो देश विदेशलाई बुझेर आउँछन् कि भनेर पठाइदिएको । India मा ता रक्सी किन्न नि १ कि.मी हिड्नुपर्छ रे तै पनि यहाजस्तो जहितहि नपाउने; ढुक्क भाछ आजकाल ।पैसा कमाए भने ठीकै छ, हैन भने पनि कमसेकम पैसा कमाउन कति गार्हो हुन्छ भनेर त बुझ्छन नि” । ओ हो, बा आमाले छोरा छोरीलाई सिकाउने पाठ त कहिले कहिं छोरा छोरीले नि बा आमालाई सिकाउँदा रैछन् । खुशी लाग्यो ।

होलीको दिनको कुरा हो ।एउटा uncleko मा छिर्याथियौं; उहांकि करीब ९० वर्षकि बुढी आमाको घाटी भन्दा माथिको भाग मात्र चल्दो रहेछ। विजोग देखे मैले । दिमाग ले काम गरिरहेको थियो, भोक प्यास सबै महसुस गर्नुहुन्थयो र बोल्नु पनि हुन्थ्यो तर शरीर भने ओल्टो कोल्टो नि नफेरिने। जीवनको हरेक क्षण अरुप्रति आश्रित रहनु पर्ने दु:ख को आभाष हामी सजिलै गर्न सक्थियौं । आमाले गफको क्रम मा भन्नुभयो “यस्तो जीवन त बाच्नु छ काल नि नआउदोरैँनछ खै” ; मुटो च्वास्स बिझो मेरो तर उहांको छोराको अनुहारबाट मुस्कान हराको थिएन। शायद यो सुन्ने वानी परिसक्या थियो या शायद सबैलाई थाहै थियो जीवन भन्दा मृत्यु कति हो कति सहज थियो आमाको लागि। भोलिपल्ट हरेक पत्रिकाको पहिले पृष्टमा एउटै खबर आयो; “एक १९ वर्षकि युवतिको छतबाट खसेर मृत्यु” । उसको जीवन त सहि रुपमा शुरु नि भाथेन होला दैवको बज्रपात सहनु पर्यो । एकछिन अगाडि आँखा अगाडि खेलिरहेकि छोरीको अकस्मात निधन ले ति बा आमा माथि के वित्यो होला तेसको अनुमान लगाउन बाहेक अरु केहि गर्न पनि सक्दैनौं हामी। यि दुई घटनाले मलाई सोच्न बाध्य तुल्यायो कि जमाना जति नै technologically advanced भए पनि मृत्यु माथि काबू पाउन नसकिदो रहेछ। हामी कसैको पनि जीवनको कुनै भरोशा छैन; आज छ त भोलि नहुन नि सक्छ। तसर्थ हरेक दिनलाई आफ्नो अन्तिम दिन हुनसक्छ भन्ने ठानेर तेसको  पूर्ण रूपमा सदुपयोग गर्नु जरुरी छ। त्यसैले कसैलाई माया जताउनु छ भने आझै जताऔं, माफी माग्नु छ भने आजै मागुम, धन्यवाद भन्नु छ भने आजै भनुम,सपना देख्नु छ भने आजै देखुम, तेसलाई पुरा गर्न कुनै कदम चाल्नु छ भने आजै बाट चालुम ।केहि कामलाई पनि भोलि भनेर धाति नराखुम नै राम्रो जस्तो लाग्यो ताकि अकस्मात मृत्यु संग जमकाभेट भइहालो भने पनि विना कुनै पश्चाताप हासी हासी तेसलाई अङ्गाल्न सकियोस् हैन भगवानको कृपाले लामो आयु पाइयो भनेपनि जीवनको अन्तिम समय गन्दै ब्रहमनालमा लडेको बेला आफ्नो वितेको जीवनको बारेमा सोच्दा गर्व महशुस गर्न सकियोस्।

अधुरोपना

यथार्थले प्रहार गर्यो; सपनीले दम तोड्यो!!!!!!!

आँखा यो रसाइ रह्यो; मुटु मेरो छिया पर्यो!!!!

मागेको थिएँ केवल खुशी; दु:खको सागरमा जीवन डुब्यो!!!!

चाहेको थिएँ केवल साथ, हात तिम्रो कता छुट्यो!!!!

जीउँदो लाशसरि भए म; तैपनि आशा जीवितै रह्यो!!!

जीन्दगी अन्धकारमा डुब्यो मेरो; तैपनि ज्योतिको खोज चलिनैरह्यो!!!

एक्लै यात्रा गरिनैरहे; मिलनको याद साँचिनै रहे!!!

गन्तव्यमा पुग्ने विश्वास थियो; आज मेरो भ्रम टुट्यो!!!

रोएँ, कराएँ, विलाप गरें; मेरो पुकार अन्सुनी नै भयो!!!

सम्पूर्णतामा रमाउन चाहन्थे;जीवन मेरो अधुरो नै रह्यो!!

प्रचण्डको दु:ख उनकै स्वरमा

जोसमा आएर देशको एउटा पनि भित्ता नछोडिकन नेपालको पहिलो राष्ट्पति भनेर आफ्नो नाम लेख्न त लाइहाले, आजकाल भित्ते राष्ट्पति  भित्ते राष्ट्पति  भनेर मान्छेहरूले जिस्क्याउँदा कम्ता पोल्छ र यो छाती तर मेरो दु:ख त मैसँग छ, कसले बुझ्ने र मेरो कुरा(दिक्क मान्दै) । हरे यो बत्ति नि कति जांदो रैछ। अँध्यारोमा त आफ्नो दु:ख सम्झी सम्झी भक्कानो छुटेर पो आउँछ त। ल त ल भनेर compromise गरें मैले र प्रधानमन्त्रिकै पदले चित्त बुझाउने कोशिस गरे तर राक्षसहरूले ६ महिना भन्दा टिक्न दिएनन् के । त्यो कटवाल त आफैं retire हुन लागेकै रैछ बेकारमा ममात्र retire हुन पर्यो त्यो नि बेलै नपुगि। अब राष्ट्पतिलाई नि तातो न छारोको छिर्कि किन लाउनु परेको होला मलाई। आजकाल त यो राष्ट्पति भन्ने शब्द नै मन पर्दैन मलाई!!!! उफ् ।अब नपाएपछि स्यालले अंगुर अमिलो भनेको जस्तो गरि भन्या हैन के मैले। खासमा उद्घाटन र बेलामौकाको चाडपर्वमा मन्दिर जानु बाहेक केहि काम नहुदो रैछ राष्ट्पतिको पनि(मख्ख पर्दै)!!!

यो बाउरो नि हिरो पल्टेर निस्कियो एक्कासी…..मलाई त मान्छे गन्दैन बा। आखिर पड्काइछाड्यो नि प्रधानमन्त्रिको पद। तर केहि छैन अब त बुझिसक्यो होला नि तेति सजिलो पनि छैन प्रधानमन्त्रि बन्न।। loadsheddin, मूल्य ब्रिद्दी, अराजकताको माझमा कतिन्जेल टिक्दा रैछौ म नि हेर्छु क्यारे(घमाण्डका साथ) !!! म डेड लाखको पलङमा सुतेर के भो त जनता त महङगाइको चपेटमा पर्या थेनन् नि, अब बाउरो  सस्तो मुस्ताङ चढेर जनतालई चाहीं महङगाइको दलदलमा घचेडिदियो, को गतिलो रैछ; म कि ऊ?? तर बुझ्ने कसले,यो देशका जनता त भडै हुन के।। सहि कुरा त का पच्छ त।। हुन त भेडा नभएका भएदेखि मेरो पछाडि यत्रा मान्छे माओबादी सेनामा लागेर आफ्नै जीन्दगै बर्बाद गर्थे होला त।।। अझै बुद्दी आएको छैन बेबकुफहरुको।। लडाकुको नाममा आएको पैसा मैले कप्लक्क खाएको त पत्तै छैन क यिनिहरूलाई ।।म तेति लाटो नि छैन नि, भर्खरै नयाँ घरमा सरे, केहि महिनामै डेड लाखको पलङमा सुत्ने बानी बसिसकेछ त मलाई चाहिं खर्च चाहिन्न कि के हो।।ओहो यो बुढी पनि जतिखेरै किचकिचमात्र गरिरहन्छे। यसलाई पनि १० लाख दिएर स्वैछिक अवकाश लेर माइत हा भन्नु पर्ने रैछ।।। टन्ठै साफ हुन्थ्यो!!!!!!!

पैसो त छ, तर बच्चा बच्चाले सुद्ध पत्याउन छाडिसके मलाई।। यो वैध्य हेर्दा मर्या स्याल जस्तो छ, फुर्ति चाहीं हेर न फेरि; फुट्या आँखाले देख्न सक्दैन मलाई।। आखिर मेरै सहाराले यहासम्म आइपुगेको भन्ने त बिर्सन त हुन्न नि!! फेरि यो k.p oli संग नि बचेरै हिड्नुपर्छ; गालीको मुहान भन्दा कम छैन।।नेपाली शब्द नि का का बाट खोजेर ल्याउँछ कुन्नि मोरोले, चशक्कै हुने गरि भन्छ।।।मा कु ने फेरि उता “म त राजीनामा देपछि नि तिमी भन्दा बढी समयको लागि प्रधानमन्त्रि भएँ” भन्ने नजरले हेर्छ!!!उफ्!!!!! अर्कै पार्टीको भएनि गिरीजाले यसो कुरा सुन्थे मेरो, तिनलाई पनि दैबकै घर जान हतार भयो।।। विदेशी प्रभुले नि मेरो शिरमाथिबाट आशिर्वाद को हात हटाएको नि निकै भैसक्यो!!! हेर gyanendra तिमीलाई हटाउने मेरो कुनै बिचार थेन, तर मलाई के था त कांग्रेसले तिम्रो साथ छोडेर एक्कासी गणतन्त्रको समार्थन गर्छ भनेर।म विवश थें, माफ गर!!!!!

ओहो जति सोचो उति घाउ कोटिदो पो रैछ।।बैकारमा के दु:ख मनाउ मात्र गरिरहानु।।।यसो टि.भि हेरौं भने नि बत्ति छैन। होस् सुत्नुपरो अब यसो सपनामै भएपनि राष्ट्पति बनिहाल्छु कि।।।। प्रधानमन्त्रि नै बने पनि म compromise गर्न तयार छु है।।।।।Gudnyt!!!!!!!!!!

अराजकता र मूलुक

हरेक दिन पत्रिका हेर्दा सधैंजसो आइरहाने एउटै प्रवित्तिको समाचारले हामीलाई दिक्क लाग्दोहो!!!हत्या,हिंसा,लुटपाट, अपहरण जस्ता शब्द एकदम आम भैसक्यो हामी नेपालीको लागि। बुद्ध यहि देशमा जन्मेर संसारलाई अहिंसा  र भाइचाराको पाठ पढाएका थिए भन्ने कुरा सोच्दा पनि अनैाठो लाग्न थालिसक्यो। समय जति अघि बढ्दै गयो, लाग्छ कि हामीहरुले मानवतालाई तेति नै पछि छोड्दै गयैां ।जति महङ्गाई बढ्दै गयो, उति नै मान्छेहरूको जीवनको मूल्य सस्तो हुंदै गयो। स्वार्थ मानवता माथि यति हावी भयो कि नाता,गोता,भावना, सम्बन्धको कुनै मोल नै रहेन।

कुरा केहि समय अगाडिको हो। ख्याति हत्या काण्डले पुरा देश श्तब्ध भयो ।हत्यारालाई सबैले सरापे, ख्याति र उनको परिवारप्रति सबैले दु:ख मनाउ गरे;पुलिसले आफ्नो काम गर्यो;अर्को दिनको सूर्योदय संगै सबै आ-आफ्नै काममा व्यस्त भए।ख्यातिको याद पनि विस्तारै धमिलिदै गयो । हुन त कोही यो संसारमा नभएर कसैको पनि जीन्दगी नरोकिदो रैछ तर पनि अनाहकमा ज्यान गुमाएका हरूको कमी त अरू भन्दा बढी नै महसुस हुंदो हो खासगरि उनीहरूको आफन्त र प्रियजनहरूको माझमा ।समय बित्दै गयो!!!! फेरि पत्रिकामा नया खबर आयो। धरानमा  एउटा बच्चाले रीसको झोकमा आफ्नै साथीको सिसाले पेट चिरेर हत्या गर्यो। समाचार पढेर मन चसक्क भयो। फेरि  एक प्रेमिले चोँभारको जंगलमा आफ्नै प्रेमिकाको निर्ममतापूर्वक हत्यो गर्यो । फेरि  एकपल्ट हामीलाई दु:ख लाग्यो। मर्ने प्रति सहानुभूति जागयो र मार्ने प्रति रीस उट्यो!!!!एक बाउले आफ्नी नाबालक छोरीलाई मादी खोलामा फालेर हत्या गर्यो। पछिल्लो समयमा आएर डि.आ.जी ले आफ्नी पत्नि मारेर जलाएको समाचार आगोसरि चारैतिर फैलियो।फेरिपनि सुन्दा दु:ख लाग्यो र यो कुरा पनि एक दुई दिनमा हराएर जान्छ यसमा कुनै शङ्का नै छैन।

यि त केहि उदाहरण मात्र हुन जुन मेरो मानसपटलबाट आोझेल हुन पाएका छैनन् ।यस्ता हजारैां अप्रिय घटनाहरू हाम्रो घर,परिवार, समाज र देशमा घटिरहेका छन्। कति घटना त मानिसहरूको नजरमा सम्म नि परेनन् होला, कति अपराधीहरु कानुनको पन्जाबाट अझै कोसैं टाढा खुलेआम घुमिरसेका होलान,कति अबोधहारुको पुकार त उनिहरुकै मिर्तयुसंगै विलिन भयो होला!! हामी समाजको यो स्तिथि देखेर दु:खी त अवश्य होलाम तर निरीह बनेर टुलुटुलु किन हेरिरसेका छौं,त्यो मैले बुझ्न सकेको छैन। यति हुंदा हुंदै पनि दुई मिनेटको समय निकालेर कसैले सोच्ने सम्म पनि प्रयत्न गर्या छैनौं कि आखिर यो मुलुक अराजकता तर्फ किन धकेलिइरहेको छ त!! हामी कुकुरलाई आफ्नो ओछ्यानमा सुताएर आफ्नै काखमा प्रेमपूर्वक खेलाउँछौं भने किन कुनै हिंसात्मक गतिविधिमा संलग्न हुनु अगाडि हाम्रो हात  काम्दैन त ।यी घटनाहारू जति घटे तेसमा कुनै अपरिचित ले नभई आफ्ना चिनेजानेका मान्छेहरूबाटै हत्या भएको देखिएको छ । त के यो सोच्ने बेला आएको छैन त आखिर के तत्व हो तेस्तो जसले मानिसहरुलाई यति निरीह बनाइरहेको छ कि उनिहरु आफनो होसमाथि काबू पाउन सकेका छैनन् ।हामीलाई त आफ्ना निर्जिव वस्तुहारूको समेत माया लाग्छ चाहे त्यो हाम्रो बाइक होस्, मोबाइल होस या सानैदेखि सम्हालेर राखेको खेलौना होस् तर   कुनै समय आफूसंग कुनै न कुनै प्रकारबाट आत्मिय रहेका व्यक्ति को जीवनसंग खेलबाड गर्नु अगाडि आखिर मान्छेहरु हिचकिचाउन किन छोडे त, यो सोच्नुपर्ने समय आइसकेको छ।

शायद यी घटनाहरुमा हाम्रा कुनै आफन्त परेनन् होला त हामीले दुई दिनमा यी कुरा बिर्सियौं होला तर ति कसै न कसैका आफन्त त अवश्य थिए होलान अनि भोलि गएर तेस्तोमा हाम्रा कोहि आफ्ना मान्छे नपर्लान या हामी आफैं पनि नपरुला भन्ने के छ र। यहि हो उत्तम समय; अपराधिलाई सजाय दिने भन्दा अपराध निर्मूल गर्ने उपाय पत्ता लगाउने।शुरवात हामी आफूबाटै गारौं । स्वार्थ, अमानवता र हिंसात्मक प्रवित्तिलई आफूमाथि हावी हुन नदिउँ ।व्यसतताको माझबाट केहि समय निकालेर आफ्नो परिवार, साथिहारुलाई दिएर माया, आत्मियताको वातावरण सिर्जना गरम । खासगरि नयाँ पिडिंलाई अहिंसाको पाठ पढाएर मानवताको पथमा हिंड्न लगाउनु अत्यावश्यक भैसकेको छ। माथिबाट यो पनि बिचार गर्नु पर्ने अवस्था आएको छ कि कतै आफ्नो घर परिवार, छिमेक समाजमा कोहि तनावमा त छैनन् ।उनिहरूको गतिविधि शंकासपद लागेमा तेस्ता व्यक्तिहरु प्रति अलि विशेष ध्यान पुर्याउने हो भने यस्ता घटनामाथि धेरै नियन्त्रण पाउन सकिन्थ्यो । शुरवात हामीले गर्यौं भने हामीलाई पछ्याउनेको कुनै  कमी हुन्नथ्यो!!!

हामी नेपालीहरू भनेका त ममताको सागर हौं,प्रेमको भण्डार हौं,सदभावको खानि हौं । कोहि कतै परिस्तिथिको मारमा परेर आफनो बाटो बिराउन त सक्लान तर हामी अलिक सचेत र सजग हुने हो भने यस्ता घटना रोक्न नसक्ने कुरै छैन;देवकोटाले कल्पना गरेका सुन्दर,शान्त र विशाल नेपालको निर्वाण गर्न अवश्य सक्नेछौं !!!!!

आशा

रातको अन्धकारलाई चिर्दै
     फेरि नयाँ बिहानी आउँछ!!!!
खडेरिको अन्त्यसँगै
      फेरि नयाँ पालुवा पलाउँछ!!!!!!

आकाशसँग धर्ति जतिनै टाढा भएपनि
    पर क्षीतिजमा त मिलन हुन्छ हुन्छ!!!!
कहालिंदै मध्य रातमा ब्यूझेपनि
    आँखाले मीठो सपनी बोक्छ बोक्छ!!!!!

मिलन बिछोड त जीवनको रीत नै हो
    जीन्दगीको यात्रा तैपनि चलिनै रहन्छ!!!
असफलताको पाइला पछिएछन् भनेपनि
     नयाँ आशले साथ दिइनैरहन्छ!!!!!

हलका चोट लाग्यो त के भयो
   समयले ठूला-ठूला घाउ त निको पार्छ!!!!!
भविष्य देख्ने क्षमता त कसैमा छैन
    त्यसमा अवश्य खुशीको सन्देश लुकेको हुनुपर्छ!!!!!

तिमी त खाली के के भन्छैा, के के भन्छैा

बिहान उठी आँखा मिच्दै
   तिम्रै तस्बिर हेर्छु  भन्छैा
रात परे सपनीमा
   तिमिलाई नै डाक्छु भन्छैा

अँगालोमा बेरी मलाई
   खुशी सारा दिन्छु भन्छैा
पन्चे बाजा डोली ल्याई
   सिउँदो तिम्रो रङगाउछु भन्छैा

हात मात्र थाम्न देउ
   साथ सधै निभाउछु भन्छैा
केवल मेरो बनी हेर
  मायाको सागर पिलाउँछु भन्छैा

जीन्दगीको बाटो कठीन
  सहयात्री बन्छु भन्छैा
दिन रात हरेक पल
   तिमलाई याद गर्छु भन्छैा

परेली यो झिम्किदा पनि
  तिम्रै मुहार देख्छु भन्छैा
यता उति जता ततै
  तिमीलाई नै खोज्छु भन्छैा

सपना मात्र देख तिमी
  पुरा म त्यसलाई गर्छु भन्छैा
एक कदम मात्र बढाउ ितिमी
  गन्तव्यसम्म पुर्यायीदिन्छु भन्छैा

तिम्रो मेरो मिलन सँगै
   जीवन सुखमय हुन्छ भन्छैा
एक अर्काको साथ पाई
    पलभरमा जीन्दगी कट्छ भन्छैा

मख्ख मलाई पार्ने गरी
   कुरा तिमी ठूला-ठूला गर्छैा
खै कति विश्वास गरैां
  तिमी त खाली के के भन्छैा, के के भन्छैा

CCProxy - Internet Filter, Web Filter and Content Filter Software

CC Proxy Server Software has all-around filter functionality. It can realize Internet filter and Web filter, no matter basing on the content or the site itself. Web filter can effectively control the web sites that clients want to visit. 

Web Filter

Web filters can effectively restrict clients accessing to particular web sites.

"Account -> Web Filter"

• Web Filter Name is used to define different web filter rules.
• Site Filter: Input the sites you want to filter in the edit box. Site filter supports wildcard character (*,?). Multiple sites should be divided by semicolon. For example:
  *.yahoo.com;???.hotmail.com;www.*.org.
  Also you can define port filter. For example:
  *:433, *.yahoo.com:80;*.hotmail.com:*;
  You can also input a web filter file name here. The web filter file format is one web filter for one line. For example:
  *.yahoo.com;
  *.hotmail.com;
  *.bbc.com:*;
  *.msn.com:433;
• Permitted Sites: the clients can only access the sites which are included in the site filters.
• Forbidden Sites: the clients can not access the sites which are included in the site filters.
• Forbidden URL: You can define the URL filter here. You can input whole or partial URLs. For example:
  http://www.google.com/;*.zip;*.exe;*/mail/;
  Forbidden URL is different from Site Filter. Site Filter only applies to the web host name and port, whereasForbidden URL applies to the whole URL address.
• Forbidden Content can filter web pages with specific characters. If the web page includes such characters, it will be banned. Input the characters you want to name in the edit box. Multiple characters should be divided by semicolon. For example: chat;travel.
  Notes: This step is only to define a web filter rule. If you want to apply it to a specific account, you should edit the account's properties and select the web filter rule for the account.

Time Schedule (Control On-line Time, Access Time Control)

Time schedule is used to control the clients' on-line time.

"Account -> Time Schedule"

• Time Schedule Name is used to define different time schedule rules. 
• Sunday to Saturday: This is used to set different on-line time schedules for business days. You can edit time schedule directly in the edit box or click the button besides edit box. In the popup "Time Table" dialog box, there are 24 time range choices. Note:"01:00" means Internet access is allowed from 00:00 to 01:00. "Apply to," means the time control of the day is only effective for checked choices.
  Notes: This step is only to define a time schedule rule. If you want to apply it to the specific account, you should edit the account's property and select the time schedule rule for this account.

Some Samples of Internet Web Filter Management

• How to block some certain sites for clients

Suppose you want to block Yahoo and CNN sites.
1. Open "Account Manager" dialog box.
2. Click "Web Filter" button and open the "Web Filter" dialog box.
3. Click "New" button.
4. Enter "filter-yahoo" in "Web Filter Name".
5. Check "Site Filter" and "Forbidden Sites".
6. Enter "*yahoo.*;*cnn.*" in the edit box of "Site Filter".
7. Click "Save" and "OK" button.
8. Back to "Account Manager" dialog box. Select one client and click "Edit" button.
9. Check "Web Filter" and choose "filter-yahoo" from the list box.
10. Click "OK" button. Now the client unable to access Yahoo and CNN.

• How to allow only several certain sites for clients

Suppose you want to allow clients only access www.youngzsoft.net.
1. Open "Account Manager" dialog box.
2. Click "Web Filter" button and open the "Web Filter" dialog box.
3. Click "New" button.
4. Enter "permit-youngzsoft" in "Web Filter Name".
5. Check "Site Filter" and "Permitted Sites".
6. Enter "*youngzsoft*" in the edit box of "Site Filter".
7. Click "Save" and "OK" button.
8. Back to "Account Manager" dialog box. Select one client and click "Edit" button.
9. Check "Web Filter" and choose "permit-youngzsoft" from the list box.
10. Click "OK" button. Now the client can only access www.youngzsoft.net.

• How to block sites with certain content

Suppose you want to block sites that contains "chat".
1. Open "Account Manager" dialog box.
2. Click "Web Filter" button and open the "Web Filter" dialog box.
3. Click "New" button.
4. Enter "filter-chat" in "Web Filter Name".
5. Check "Forbidden Content".
6. Enter "chat" in the edit box of "Forbidden Content".
7. Click "Save" and "OK" button.
8. Back to "Account Manager" dialog box. Select one client and click "Edit" button.
9. Check "Web Filter" and choose "filter-chat" from the list box.
10. Click "OK" button. Now the client cannot access any sites that contains "chat".

• How to block some exercisable files from Internet

1. Open "Account Manager" dialog box.
2. Click "Web Filter" button and open the "Web Filter" dialog box.
3. Click "New" button.
4. Enter "filter-exe" in "Web Filter Name".
5. Check "Forbidden URL".
6. Enter ".exe;.bat;.pif;.msi" in the edit box of "Forbidden URL".
7. Click "Save" and "OK" button.
8. Back to "Account Manager" dialog box. Select one client and click "Edit" button.
9. Check "Web Filter" and choose "filter-exe" from the list box.
10. Click "OK" button. Now the client cannot download exercisable files.

• How to limit bandwidth for clients

1. Open "Account Manager" dialog box.
2. Select one client and click "Edit" button.
3. Enter "4096" in the "Bandwidth".
4. Click "OK" button. Now the client's bandwidth is 4Kb/s.
5. If you only want to limit upload bandwidth, please go to CCProxy "Options" -> "Advanced" -> "Networks". You can select the bandwidth control type from "Bandwidth Control Apply for".

• How to block some certain ports for clients

Suppose you want to block port 1863 (MSN messenger port).
1. Open "Account Manager" dialog box.
2. Click "Web Filter" button and open the "Web Filter" dialog box.
3. Click "New" button.
4. Enter "filter-port-1863" in "Web Filter Name".
5. Check "Site Filter" and "Forbidden Sites".
6. Enter "*:1863" in the edit box of "Site Filter".
7. Click "Save" and "OK" button.
8. Back to "Account Manager" dialog box. Select one client and click "Edit" button.
9. Check "Web Filter" and choose "filter-port-1863" from the list box.
10. Click "OK" button. Now the client cannot access port 1863 and MSN messenger.

• How to customize the "Forbidden" page

1. Open "Options" dialog box.
2. Click "Advanced" button.
3. Click "Customize" button.
4. You can change the "Account auth failed message", "Web site filter message" and "Web content filter message".
5. Click "OK" button.

मैले विवशतामा रमाउन सिकिसकेछु!!!

अब घाउहरुले दुखाउदैन मलाई;
अन्धकारले तर्साउदैन मलाई;
असफलताले डराउदैन मलाई;
एक्लोपनले झस्काउदैन मलाई;
किनभने:
मैले विवशतामा रमाउन सिकिसकेछु!!!
वेहोसीमा हास्न थालिसकेछु!!!

अन्योलमा छ भविष्य;पर्वाह मलाई छैन;
छिया-छिया भएको छ मुटु;पीर मलाई छैन;

प्रतिक्षामा थाकिसकेछ आखा;आशु झर्ने छैन;

खुशीले बाटो नै विर्सेछ;मुस्कुराउन छोड्ने छैन;
किनभने:
मैले विवशतामा रमाउन सिकिसकेछु!!!
दु:खमा बाच्न जानिसकेछु!!!!

सपनाको स‌ंसारमा खडेरी पर्यो;तैपनि आंखा खोल्न चाहन्न;
जीवनमा खग्रास ग्रहण लाग्यो;तैपनि म बाच्न छोडदिन;
अघि बढ्ने बाटो हरायो;तैपनि पाइला रोक्न सक्दिन;
म आफैसंग विरानो भएं;तैपनि अस्तित्वको खोजी रोकिन्न;
किनभने:
मैले विवशतामा रमाउन सिकिसकेछु!!!
आशामा जिउन छाडीसकेछु!!!

Test Test

I always wanted to write bt had no idea what to write. One day suddenly I thought of entering into the world of blogging. People really enjoyed writing blogs so, I too thought of giving a try. But where shall I begin from and what should I write. I was totally blank. But nothing to worry about coz its neither any exam nor any competition. I m thereby free to write whatever I want. So I am going to make full utilization of my freedom. No one is compelled to read what I write and thats what I like the most...Just Me and My feelings..and thts blogging for me.....

In Today's Technological age, Its difficult to find a pen around us if we want to write anything but internet is there for us  anytime anywhere.So why not make use of it?? Why not pour our feelings over here??Blogging will more  serve as a dairy which will continue to listen the voices of my heart and mind without complaining a word . At the time of loneliness, It will be my fren.At the time of anger, it will be my punchbag.When i m hurt, It will be my consoler.When I feel low, it will give its shoulder for me to cry .Hence from this time onward, I will get a platform to jot my words, to express my mind, to pour my feelings and to make my wasted time fruitful. Blogging is be my new passion.